Wavering

I am once again challenged to keep my focus on who God is, to keep my eyes on His and ignore all other messages. Most would agree, it is very very hard. But it is not impossible.

I am reminded of Peter’s attempt to walk on water. He saw Jesus walking on water and asked that he be allowed to do the same. Jesus granted him the request. Peter successfully walked on water, but not for long.

I am currently going through the same lesson. God has given me an assurance of an event equivalent to the miracle of walking on water [for my level of faith, that is]. For me to stay continuously walking on the water, I must fix my eyes on God’s eyes, not even His hands.

Let’s begin with the wrong footing. If I centre my ‘centre of gravity’ or confidence on my abilities, I would quickly sense the doubts / insecurity and my feet would not find the expected firm ground, causing imbalance and eventual sinking.

If I count on all factors to be favourable, I would soon realise that there ruthless and unscrupulous people eager to do damage without a blink of the eye, systems and processes that favour those who manipulate the system for self gain, and policies and procedures that bury those who choose to honour righteousness and walk in integrity. The water is not still. Waves and under current will challenge the walk on the water.

If I exert all effort to focus on positive energy, to believe in what well wishers say, pushing myself beyond my limits, using ‘Chi’, I would be exhausted and vulnerable. The walk on the water would be very short lived.

Whichever way I look, I see competition – fair and unfair ones, I see major challenges or mountains, I see my own limitations amplified by others’ successes. My own insecurities would sink me before I could take the first step on the water.

I must therefore fix my eyes on the one who gave me the vision, who equipped me, and who will see me through till the vision is accomplished.

He who started the good work is faithful to complete it. [verse from the Bible]

Only when I put my entire trust and faith in the one whose promised cannot be broken, who paid the ransom by His own blood to redeem me as His bride, only then would I be able to walk on water for the entire duration that I have been called to do so.

My eyes cannot entertain any distractions, my ears cannot be itchy to hear every whisper in the wind, and my spirit cannot be haughty. I must walk towards my God with my eyes fixed on Him and on His strength.

Hold me accountable in the days to come!