Inner conflict….

In my years of work experience, I scenario plan for almost anything. From the perspective of planning and decision making, it is a good skill.

But I am recently awoken to an inner conflict.

To scenario plan is to analyse the probability of something happening, examine all the what ifs and then make decisions accordingly.

However, hope is not anchored on scenario planning. Hope is anchored on faith and faith is on the promise of God. Once I stand in faith on the promise of God, it is anchored on solid rock and I face all the odds, and walk through the many 'inspite of'.

Those two positions pull in opposite directions. I am being tested in my faith at this very moment. I must choose one of the 2 positions because swinging between the 2 states is a wavering mind.

I know what I will choose. Obviously, the One who put the universe in place, and named all the stars, and knows the number of hairs on my head, and is still writing the script of my life and who is the Alpha and Omega, He has made His promise. Should I doubt Him and choose to be smarter than Him?

I am not that stupid, I hope. I will walk in faith and wait, inspite of the odds. No scenario planning for this one!